yourlocalpyro

When I fall... I fall real hard.

You can’t even man up to one failure. You think failure is not an option. If you failed once the world would stop for you, but you didn’t know that every day of my life has been a tremendous failure. Another opportunity missed another dream not perused. I hate myself and with a self loathing that tears at ones soul. I failed at everything... god I want to get out.

I don't feel like writing much right now, but make note to update another time with a good story ****

Uph, this summers be a slow depressing spiral downward, I wonder how its going to end. Dear god I hope its freaken good. Just something good happen...

Changing with the wrinkles in my shirt.
Swords imbedded where angel wings should be.
Scars telling the tales of a thousands years labor.
Bones crackle, frail like the embers of a dying fire.
Mind weak with pestilence, disease of insanity.
Words fading as lost sailors to the sea,
and a loss of sensation of being...

asleep

So I was over my friends house in rockville just talking and chattin the night away. We were relaxing after a good day, got alot done and it was just a time to relax. It was around 12:35ish when two young teens decided it would be a good idea to break into his van and steal his stuff. When we went out 10 minutes later we were disgrunted to find all the stuff gone. It really upsets me that these people STEAL from a hard working man. Someone who dumps they're paycheck to afford things they need to live and then someone goes off and takes their crap which they can't afford to replace. Stealing from a business compared to stealing from personal belongs are different b/c a large business can afford it but taking from someone is just a pussyish thing to do.

So when I was leaving I stopped for gas and saw a cop at the gas station at about 1:10. I decided Id atleast talk to him to let him know there was some dickheads in the area. Turns out they had just JUST stopped the kids and confinscated the two air pistols they stole from my friends van but released em with the rest of his stuff. So the cops took down the information and were looking for em, but my friend didnt wanna give out a warrent for their arrest b/c he didnt wanna have any response or trouble from them being arrested, he just wanted his stuff back.

Why... why do such nice people keep getting shafted. It really upsets me, genuinely. Here we have a kid who just wants a couple of his items back because they are a neccessity to his life and was willing to just GIVE the rest of the stuff to the kids who stole it as long as they didnt create any future trouble with them. What the hell... does anybody else see why good people always get the shaft? Its just depressing, I wanted my friend so badly to press charges but I respect his decision even more... willing to give up his personal belongings not to cause future trouble... thats true nobility.

*sigh* Life sucks.

Does a guy who doesn't care about the attractiveness have more power then a gorgeous female?

Im such a loser, why is it the only girl who I wanna actually talk to in the class only briefly chats w/me but never wants to hang out, and I can't get the gumption up to actually ask her, always bad timing... always.

1 class left, 1 chance left... but probably already too late

College is wasting all of my tallents. As well as lack of funds. I am the most creative person EVER, but I'm prohibited by the bounds of which my society has set upon me. I can't fuckin wait til I get alteast just a little spending money to show the world what the last name Therrien actually means. Growing up I was disgusted with my last name. I hated it, I always wanted to be a part of another family just to get rid of my last name. For most of you probably can either agree with that or not. Over time Ive changed though, I really wanna make my last name into a company like Ferrari or such. I can't wait, cause I'm gonna.

I fear fate sneaking up on me lately. It grows closer and I know no matter what I do it's coming to get me. Whether I drive fast or drive slow, my actions in real life have absolutely no control over the events that will occur leading up to a life altering event. Sometimes I wonder if it was because you met the girl that it will be my demise, maybe its fate that is keeping me from meeting a girl because once I do the events that I know not will unturn and I'd perish. Or maybe I wonder if it'd be the cigarette that I didnt smoke that could've saved my life. If I had spent a second more outside taking drags of the cigarette then I would've never gotten hit by that drunken driver. Do I really know that fate is coming to get me? What can I do to save myself? Nothing